Does it even matter?

I got news for you folks, I am just typing to myself here. I am literally trying to pass time while I wait for other people dictate how I do my job. This is getting a little out of hand. My job relies way too much from other people on when I can move forward. So what do I get to do. I get and sit around and wait for them to do their job so I can do mine. I got news for you, it doesn't make George happy.

Let's get a move on folks...

Happy birthday to me!

Ya fuckin' hoo. Doesn't mean shit unless there is someone there to share it with. Yay, I can go out and celebrate tonight by myself by running 6 miles. Or be really nice to myself and do 10. Goddammit.

Anyway. New light has been shed on the current situation of "point, counter point". Did I burn a bridge, no. Did I make a lot of people unhappy? Hell, yes I did. I cannot jump from one job for a substantial amount lower than what i am making at both jobs, and fully focus on what he needs. I unfortunately need to keep both jobs so that I can keep doing with what I have. I refuse, REFUSE to go backwards. There is a tree in the middle of the running path. It's not stopping me from running forward, I just need to find a way around it. And, I will run around it.

I have also come to the conclusion that I don not want to be reincarnated as a cat. How is having to lick your own butthole to clean it a higher level of existence on the proverbial reincarnation food chain anyways? Why in the hell are these animals so highly regarded ? Yay, I get to poop in a box!. Wha?

It's been a almost a week, since our meeting and I am going nuts. I regretfully turned the offer down due to the fact that I don't believe that going backwards is should be an option for anyone. It really doesn't seem logical. I would have to sell my house, get some cruddy apartment, and live like a loser again, and for what. To do job a job that I am way too smart to do? I am too big for to be just one thing in life. Jack of all trades and master of none, maybe. But I am damn good at all that I do.

It's the counter offer that has gotten them either pissed off, or the fact that there is some other emergency that I am unaware of making them take this long to get back to me. It's murder to me. All I can say is that I hope I didn't burn a bridge, but offer them a new option that they didn't think of.

Everything seems to be falling down around me.

Today....

Today could be the start of something good. A meeting between the minds of two roads could converge on to one single superhighway of the future. A possibility of sorts that might be what two cars need to get to the same place. The one car, big and wide enough to make it's presence known chugs along on the highway knowing that a path lies ahead of it if it just keeps going straight. The other car is also going the same way, but sees a path that weaves in and out of the traffic. Sometimes this cars gets put behind the other one, sometimes it is way out ahead of the other car. All I know is that there are two cars trying to get to the same place using two different paths, the one searching for alternate paths can get to the destination, the other one use the same lane slowly but surely. Who will win. Some say slow and steady wins the race. Some say short cuts are the answer. I say slowly assessing the paths ahead and using the widest open lanes will get you there the fastest. Today could be the start of something good...and I am a good driver.

This is the end

Great another place to put all of my ramblings.

This is the begining of the end my friends.