Happy birthday to me!

Ya fuckin' hoo. Doesn't mean shit unless there is someone there to share it with. Yay, I can go out and celebrate tonight by myself by running 6 miles. Or be really nice to myself and do 10. Goddammit.

Anyway. New light has been shed on the current situation of "point, counter point". Did I burn a bridge, no. Did I make a lot of people unhappy? Hell, yes I did. I cannot jump from one job for a substantial amount lower than what i am making at both jobs, and fully focus on what he needs. I unfortunately need to keep both jobs so that I can keep doing with what I have. I refuse, REFUSE to go backwards. There is a tree in the middle of the running path. It's not stopping me from running forward, I just need to find a way around it. And, I will run around it.

I have also come to the conclusion that I don not want to be reincarnated as a cat. How is having to lick your own butthole to clean it a higher level of existence on the proverbial reincarnation food chain anyways? Why in the hell are these animals so highly regarded ? Yay, I get to poop in a box!. Wha?

It's been a almost a week, since our meeting and I am going nuts. I regretfully turned the offer down due to the fact that I don't believe that going backwards is should be an option for anyone. It really doesn't seem logical. I would have to sell my house, get some cruddy apartment, and live like a loser again, and for what. To do job a job that I am way too smart to do? I am too big for to be just one thing in life. Jack of all trades and master of none, maybe. But I am damn good at all that I do.

It's the counter offer that has gotten them either pissed off, or the fact that there is some other emergency that I am unaware of making them take this long to get back to me. It's murder to me. All I can say is that I hope I didn't burn a bridge, but offer them a new option that they didn't think of.

Everything seems to be falling down around me.